Hindi ako naboboring.. naaantok lang talaga ako.. :D Hayyy...!!
Gusto kong umuwi sa bahay at matulog nalang ngunit tinatamad naman akong maglakad.
Iba talaga pagsinusumpong ng katamaran.. kahit ang tumayo lang ay hindi magawa. haha :p
Nandito ako ngayon sa library at ang aking kahibangan sa pagkakaantok ay lalong lumalala. Ang sarap siguro matulog sa ganilong silid. Malamig, hindi maingay at matiwasay na kapaligiran kapag dumungaw ka sa bintana..Sana may higaan ditto :D kahit sofa lang ok nako :D

Teka lang bakit nga ba ako nagsusulat? Weird no? Wala kasi akong magawa.. wala akong klase.. wala din kausap kaya naghanap nalang ako ng pwede kong mapagbuntungan ng aking kahibangan sa ngayon. Wahaha! Well, malamang napapatanong ang katabi ko kung ano ang tinatype ko kasi mejo mahaba-haba din to :D

Aactually, pumunta ako dito sa lib para sana magsearch ng assignment ko para bukas.. pero parang hindi naman maintindihan ni google ang aking sadya sa kanya. Hindi niya kasi masagot ang aking mga katanungan. Oh my!!! What happened to google??

Masarap pala ang pakiramdam ng ganto.. yung kahit wala kang kausap, kaharap mo lang yung computer pero masaya din.. napapangiti mo ako oh blog ko! Haha! Kasi naman, walang social website na pwede kung buksan na malilibang naman ako kahit konti. Hindi pwede sila facebook, twitter, tumblr, Skype, YM.. eh ano naman gagawin ko kung si google lang ang kasama ko diba?  Nagsearch na nga ako ng mga pangalan sa google.. para tuloy akong nagstalk. hahaha!

ahmm... yung katabi ko ba gumagawa ng assignement? Kuya sorry kung hindi ka makaconcentrate kasi mejo maingay ako magtype :D Sorry po!!! Wala lang kasi talaga ako magawa.

Kahit wala man akong kausap.. wala mang boses na lumalabas sa bunganga ko.. masaya naman akong nagtatype at at parang kausap ko na din ang sarili ko :D hehe! Ok din pala ang ganito lalo na kung nag-iisa ako.

Malimit kasi akong magsulat ng mga seryosong bagay lang.. pwede naman pala akong magsulat ng kahit ano lang. Kasi naman hindi ko na kailangan ng eraser kung magkamali man ako.. Iba na talaga ang teknolohiya.. Madali ang buhay, may karamay pa ako sa mga ganitong pangyayari.

Shocks nalalag yung G-TEC ko :'( Oh my gulay.. Doc bat naman kasi binitawan agad. Eto pa naman ang pinakaunang G-TEC ko na mejo tumagal... sana ok padin to :(

Na heart attack ako ng 4 seconds.. syempre hindi ko pinahalata kay doc. Nahihiya ako eh.. Hayyy...!!

Shocks hindi ako makaget over.. ano bayan. Bigla tuloy ako nagising!!!

Siya alis nako.. maghahanap pa kong papel para masiguro na gumagana pa tong G-TEC ko :(

Shallow thoughts

I keep on telling myself that I don't expect anything but I'm hoping for something.

It is not clear to me how hope differs from expect! Is there really a difference? or I am just being deceive by my playful feelings. 

Now I'm thinking that maybe they're the same? or the way I interpreted them are equal. 

I really don't know.. I am being deceive and my mind is now close for any explanations.

I know that I shouldn't act like this but this is how I feel right now.

These questions are no good but I am really curious. 

I feel like I can't sleep tonight because it bothers me a lot!

I feel like these thoughts are simple but I need a deeper and wider clarifications. 

A week and Forever..

In my lazy days, I usually pretend that I can't hear whoever calls me. I stay in my room, eat some desirable foods, watch movies and by that I feel relax and worry free. But there are times that even thou I did this and that to fill my desire, still I can't get the exact feeling that I wanted!

This week is our week of prayer and the theme is "Help me Stand". I've been in this institution for almost four years and it's been four years that I had these lazy days. It's been four years that I was pretending that I didn't hear God's calling. It's been four years that I go to church without sincerity!

This week of prayer is not just a week of going to church for attendance or to be with friends but this week of prayer filled my cup with joy, purity, sincerity, gladness, adoration, confession and most of all this event fully opened my eyes to see God's greatness!

I read a sermon before and it asked, "How can you turn your eyes upon Jesus when it's full of tears?" Every day, every time we kneel down and pray I shed tears because I realized how stubborn I am when I pretended that I didn't hear God. I shed tears because the truth is being laid down right in front of me but still I keep on breaking the law. I shed tears because I caused God worries still He abides with me, He take care of me, He comfort me and He never hurt me. For the 19 years of my life, He have been courting me everyday..He knocks on my door every time... but I always disregard Him. He was so patient in calling me, I've been hurting Him every moment but He never gave up on me.

...and today, He touched me and all I can say is that "MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!!" I've never been this happy before! The happiness that will not only make you smile but will make you shed tears because of the overflowing joy within! Lord, I want to praise you; I adore you for making me whole again! For giving me this feeling that I can't define...and for restoring me back into your image! I praise you for your greatness that shines brightly on me today! I praise you for sending you son Jesus to save your children. I praise you for you have been giving us your unconditional love! Above all.. I praise you Lord for this week and forever.. Amen!

A woman of experience

People who are closely attach to me like, my family and my best friends knows exactly what I'm experiencing in life. They know my reasons behind every bright and dark moments. They know exactly what I'm feeling!

Every time I have problems and my friends keep on seeing me smiling like I don't have anything inside my mind bothering me, they use to ask, "How can you maintain that joy in your heart?" or "How come you're so  strong jae?".. Every time I hear those questions, it makes me smile and think as well! Yes!How can I still rejoice if there's a big rock that's about to hit me?!!

Imagine facing your enemy with your saddest/ugliest defeated face? That's an example picture of you facing your problems with a frowning face the whole day. Frowning won't make you feel better! In facing conflicts, we should always be calm so we can think properly for a solution. Never doubt, instead believe that you will overcome every trials because you are with God in every move!

How can I keep myself standing? How can I keep myself strong?
Remember when Jesus said that He will keep His promises? I always think of that and I always remind myself whenever I'm in trouble and when I'm in doubt of myself. Having a lot of conflicts in life is not bad at all when you know how to deal with them and still make your life goes smoothly everyday.

Last night I was thinking that I'm a one lucky person because at this young age I experienced a lot of things already. I thought of myself to be an ambassador of inspiration for the next generation. I'm thinking that maybe God is allowing these things to occur in my life because he wants me to share and inspire others through my stories and in that He never failed to support me.

God has always been my greatest source of inspiration and courage! I keep myself strong by simply trusting Him and believing that I am. Every time I doubt myself, I always think that I don't have the right to give up. Why? First, it's because it's not my life but His. He just entrusted me to take part of the responsibilities that every human has to do. Second, it's because life is a greatest gift that gives us opportunity to discover and realize God's goodness to each and everyone of us. Last, it's because God himself will never give up and even if time will come that God will give up on me, I will kneel and ask Him to give me one more great experience that will mark as a greatest lesson in my life. But if God won't give up, then why would I?

One Day at a Time

I'm only human, I'm just a man/woman Help me believe in what I could be And all that I am Show me the stairway I have to climb Lord for my sake, teach me to take One day at a time One day at a time sweet Jesus That's all I'm askin' of you Just give me the strength To do every day what I have to do Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus And tomorrow may never be mine Lord, help me today, show me the way One day at a time Do you remember when you walked among men Well Jesus you know If you're lookin' below, it's worse now than then Pushin' and shovin' and crowdin' my mind So for my sake, teach me to take One day at a time One day at a time sweet Jesus That's all I'm askin' of you Just give me the strength To do every day what I have to do Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus And tomorrow may never be mine Lord, help me today, show me the way One day at a time

Sweet Hour of Prayer

First of all I wanna greet everyone a happy happy Sabbath! I wanna thank the Lord for keeping me, my family and friends safe throughout the week. I wanna say thank you for never giving up on me no matter how sinful I am.

I attended vesper with my two great friends Muk & Jennie. It was an amazing night for me. We sang songs of praise, heard a wonderful message and prayed together.

I really wanna thank God for bringing me there and make me feel the best feeling ever! I prayed with my friends with my heart full of thanksgiving, and eyes full of gladness. If I can just see Jesus sitting next to me, I will hug, kiss and tell him how much I love Him!

I cried while we pray not because I was sorry for being sinned but because, I was enlightened by the lessons God gave me behinds those sins.

God, you know everything about me. You're my best friend whom I fully trust when it comes to my secrets. You know exactly how to make me cry and how to make me smile. And because of that, I trust in you and I believe in you! Thank you for always reminding me to be patient in everything that I do. And thank you for always giving the best answer for my prayers!

I will never give up Lord, because I know that you will never give up on me :)

Good morning :D

Ang hirap magpanggap na good mood ka kung hindi naman talaga. Para bang wala kang choice kapag may nakatingin sayo. Dapat ba akong ngumiti o sumimangot para sirain din ang mga umaga nila. (HAHA) Minsan kahit alam mong hindi kaaya-ayang tignan ang nakasimangot mong mukha ay wala ka talagang magagawa. Hindi ko kayang ngumiti na nakasimangot. (TRY  MO) Kapag ako'y bad mood tiyak na sisimangot ako may nakatingin man o wala. (TARAY)

Kanina lang ay marami na akong nabiktima gawa ng pagsisimangot ko umagang-umaga. (HAHA!) Pasensya na po kayo dahil ako'y antok na antok pa at ginising na nila ako bago pa mag-alarm ang aking relo. (NAKAKAINIS NGA NAMAN TALAGA)

Pasensya na po sa mga sumusunod:
-sa guard ng school
-sa gasoline boy dun sa shell before magbel-air
-sa driver ng truck na nakasabay ko sa traffic
-sa mga nakapila sa bus terminal
...at sa kung sino pa man ang nakasaksi ng aking pagsisimangot sa araw na to. (HAHA) Hindi ko po sinasadyang mapasama kayo sa nakasimangot kong umaga, gayon pa man ako po'y nagnanais na kayo'y magkaroon ng makabuluhang lunes! Adios!